Rool

[	feelin'	|	paranoid	]
[	chillin' to	|	No Promises - Shayne Ward	]

1. I've been having pretty dry productive cough these days.
   I'm afraid I've infected PTB.
   
   
2. I'm recently feeling slight pain plus discomfort in my underarms.
   I'm afraid I've got Breast Cancer.
   
   
3. I sometimes get headache, splitting headaches, during work/stress moments.
   I'm afraid if a tumour is growing right there.
   
   
4. I am seriously tuning the needle on the weighing scale to the right day by day.
   I'm afraid I can't lose the kilos anymore, and become excrutiatingly obese.
   (til at times I feel like going back to my smoking + starving era) :(
   
   
5. I haven't start studying for my exams, which is in 10 bloody days.
   I'm afraid I'll fail miserably and retain Year 2. :O
   
   
6. I've not heard from my Dad for quite a while now.
   I'm afraid to call his cell, because of the questions he'll impose me with.
   (and the sarcasm I'll constantly have to face with, from that evil woman~)
   
   
7. I can't wait to get out of this attachments.
   ...or for any attachments for this matter.

God, please save me :(

[	feelin'	|	optimistic	]
[	chillin' to	|	With You - Chris Brown	]

Some people gets remembered for what they do, which works both ways. Good and the Bad. And usually, the Bad stays more vividly etched in one person's mind as opposed to that of the Good one. I guess it's human nature. God created humans to "mark" down people that have been a part of their lives, which either leaves an impact or just simply make your life a much better one.

As for me, I've met people of the different different kind of characters. Selfish, selfless, egoistic, charismatic, funny, plain sulky, happy-go-lucky, depressed, etc. When they say "friends come and go", I'd swear upon my life to the truth of that statement. Oh God. I used to have a friend, who's pretty easy to clique with. One day, something happened and then we started to get closer because of it.

(I don't know why I'm talking about this but) Just to recap, our life took a "miserable" turn (which I thought was for good) and our friendship wasn't as strong as it ever was anymore. But I felt safe. I felt much much safer in a place where there isn't any reason for me to be who I'm not. ..and that place was away from this person. 

I'm not surprised though that we aren't friends anymore. That we aren't talking anymore, and that we aren't even anywhere near aquaintances, anymore. In fact, I believe that things happen for a reason and that reason, be it sooner or later, will brim out and shine itself for the world to see. See, our "break up" was pretty bad and very very childish. There are 1001 reasons that I could rebutt to, but find no point to, regarding that matter and I think it's best it stays where it is right now.

Many people tend to take sides for what has happened because naturally, everyone will have that one person that they're much closer to, of the two. But I don't mind. You can choose to take on whoever's side that you may think is the right one, but when the truth comes and evils are emerging out for your ass to be bitten by it, then it's entirely none of my business anymore.

Bottomline is, sometimes when certain things happen for reasons unexplained, we shall and should just let it be. Instead of searching for answers and questions pertaining to that event, we should all just learn to accept it, like it or not. People will then develop personal feelings as a result from it, but that's personal. To each of his own, that is. And that when someone else has seen (or gone through) what I went through once, then they'll start to understand the reason why I'm thankful for the path I've chosen right now.

(: